Halloween 2010

The only picture i got from halloween...
The ghost is my son Atreyu, the witch knight is Azriel, Ana is the evil devil and that sweety pie on the end there is my niece.

I have something to confess. I am jealous of my son Atreyu... I have always always wanted to be a generic ghost... ALWAYS! I kinda borrowed his costume for a moment.... My life dream came true....This really was one of the happiest moments of my life. The only thing that could have made it any better is having the rest of my family in generic ghost dress... that would have been so fliggin Awesome.

Does anyone remember way back in the 90's when McDonalds did the Halloween pail for Halloween and the happy meal toy was a music cassette... yeah i said it so what... it wasn't that long ago. Any way on my cassette was a particular song... Putt Putt chug chug clank clank squeak rattle bump crash arruga. And its about a car race... it is my special memory about Halloween...cause i killed that cassette....listened to it too many times... if anyone else knows this song then you know how addictive it is... except for parents at the time...who hated it...lol. ok so that's it.

another meme...just ignore :)

The Presuppose You're Living in New England Meme

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Sunday Stealing: The Presuppose You're Living in New England Meme


1. Have you turned the heat on in your house yet this fall?
no, cold just means i need to start baking :)

2. Do you allow your pets on the furniture?
I have no pets.. if i did they would probably be allowed on the furniture... until a human wants or needs to be there
3. What were your final words for September?
why September are you so hot... get on track!
4. What are your first words for October?
hello RAIN! rain makes me happy
5. Do you think you’ve ever seen a ghost?
I know i have... also a demon... long story. if you want i can tell it.
6. What is the one color that represents this time of year?
mmm. don't know. i guess brown?
7. Which of your senses do you think is most sensitive this time of year?
my nose. i always know when rain is coming... i am always more sensitive to the spices and smells around now
8. What is your favorite thing to do at the county fair?
i don't think i have been to a county fair...been to the state fair. i love it all except the food. and heat.
9. What do you like when you have a cold?
SLEEP
10. Are you willing to spend over $100 for a piece of winter clothing, like boots or a coat?
I suppose if i had the money to spare and the coat was of good quality
12. What do you have too much of in your kitchen?
may or maynots...
13. What gripes do you have about this time of year?
my ankles. they sting real bad right now... in a few weeks they will feel better...once they get used to the cold.
14. Other than yourself, are you responsible for getting anyone ready in the morning?
well my kids don't go to school yet, but when they do... three kids.
15. When was the last time you cleaned your gutters?
i do believe that is never... i have lived my adult life in apartments...they really don't like people going on their roofs... :)
16. So, it’s after Labor Day. Will you still be wearing white?
I wear white? I thought black was the fat persons best friend
17. What shows are you most looking forward to this Fall?
I really want to watch fringe but grey's anatomy is on at the same time.. a show that i have been enjoying is the event
18. What three things have you just not gotten around to from the summer, but probably should do before snow flies?
hmm...i don't know... i usually like to do things when they need to be done.

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not relevant to tatting... beware

Not really relevant to tatting or emotions but enjoyable none the less.

I'm So Proud

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Saturday 9: I'm So Proud


1. What are you proud of? my kids for one and another is my ability to comprehend...

2. What is the best thing you’ve ever won as a prize? How did you win it? i don't remember the best but i know the most recent 2...one is my tatting. i won this summer on intatters and i received thread, a needle and to put my needles in...the next prize i remember is my freaky Frieda that i won off of fishing and wishing.

3. Tell us about something you've done that in retrospect was a waste of time. cleaning my kids room !!!!

4. How old were you when life changed the most for you? How did it change? well there was the birth of my kids... that was pretty life changing...

5. Tell us about a place you that you've been that you considered to be very tranquil. i used to have my room set up when i was younger... like 13 i think... and it was the best place to be... my favorite place.. everything was perfect and how i wanted it exactly... i think i was the most tranquil there

6. Who is your favorite news anchor/reporter? Why? my favorite is Maryanne McCleary. she is on Good Day Sacramento. i have loved her since i was in the ninth grade.

7. If you were to have the opportunity to name a new town or city, what would you call it? Why? I have 2 names here... one is Mootopia because i just love those commercials... the other name i would love is Tatterly... the center of the tatting universe... pictures of antique shuttles would adorn every wall (along with pictures of young family members...kids and grandkids)
8. What is something about which you've always wondered but have not yet found a good answer? i want to know why people choose to be a jerk...having the opportunity to not be one but choosing the jerk route.

9. When you can't go to sleep, what is your personal remedy to help yourself drift into Lullabyland? i usually think about tatting... making the individual stitches...if my thoughts are disturbing then i usually chant that whatever bad i am thinking about is not really going to happen...that its all in my head.

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Tatting in movies and mad skills.

SO this morning my kids were asking me for pumpkin head... i have no clue about this but i know theirs is NOT MY understaning of pumpkin head...So i thought that they might be in a haloween type of mood...So i put on the cartoon sleepy hollow...the adventures of Ichabod and mr. toad, Anthony noticed something very weird...enter in....TATTING!!!!!!!!

So weird though... its not listed under Tuesday!?

I also wanted to share a video of my oldest (Azriel) cutting an apple.
The situation...:
2 apples...
3 kids wanting apples...

Enter in my son...with his amazing problem solving skills. Without being told he goes to the kitchen and grabs a butter knife. (also being safe) he starts cutting (in his hand...not so safe) and my daughters reaction to getting only a half of an apple. And my super hot security guard boyfriend...(hey i'm trying here)... also its night so it means that my camera looks super crappy...enjoy!



Also later tonight (after the kids go to bed) i have a video addressing the "shoelace trick"

Me, Me, Me...I,I,I

in the spirit of Halloween i broke out my walmart Halloween shirt...the neck was really uncomfortable and so i cut... a little too much...but its ok...its just for the house so doesn't matter all that much.

as you also see, i am quite...big... but some good news... Thursday i found out i lost 11 pounds since my last appointment... which was three months ago...it may seem a little but a little is a lot better than gaining. Sometimes i don't like my weight, but when i am feeling feisty... like today... i love me. All my life I hadn't been twig thin... i don't aspire to be thin at all. I would love to be around 230 pounds... i think that would be a good weight for me. I would still be fat but small enough to not be completely condemned by society..lol. its really not that bad...but people make assumptions. For example...my nurse. she is a really really nice woman. She has been weighing me for the last four years... this time when she announced my weight she says OH you lost 11 pounds...what have you been doing... my answer...eating more!. And i have been. usually i don't eat until the later part of the day and usually its just dinner. But i have been comforting myself and saying "pluck this" just not really caring what i have been eating...apparently my body likes that... but she was so surprised that the answer was eating more, because people think that fat people plain just eat too much... they don't realize that a lot of fat people don't eat nearly as much as they think...also the case with my mom...for years i saw her barely eat (where i get it) and when she started eating more she started loosing weight. people just didn't believe it... but i think that i will continue to do this... just try not to over do it...or else i am going backwards...right? lol.

here is my basil...it sure is perty!












and finally my niece-y-poo....Miracle...or simply Mira... I miss her too much. as you see she is just too cuddly. I can't wait for Halloween...my sister and her small family is coming over... so fliggin excited...

onwards and upwards!

ok. so i am in the mood for some sharing....tatting sharing and kid sharing...first up is my tatted necklace. it was made from the merry-go-round edging out of one of my tatting books. I am not sure of the thread, but the closure is a snap closure...i also used on on my green bracelet...below...

this is the green bracelet. it was tatted with i believe knit cro-sheen or something like that... but yeah it is this pattern. but i believe you need to be a member of NSAN to access it. i like it a lot...a lot a lot.

this is my work that i did on the bus today...i hate, i hate the motif... everything was giving me a problem...but there that pattern is again...told you i love it.
then this is my wonderful family. planting their bean plants...and my basil...shown below...so excited... i am growing something that i am actually going to use... bizarre.
see my baby basil!

on to bragging...my little weirdo... ATREYU. he has been acting so...so....weird lately...to think of it all my kids are acting weird... Anavay and Azriel are being ultra clingy... it makes me feel as if they feel as they are going to loose me. that makes me sad...but i am ultra happy at all of the hugs and kisses. because i know in a small time they are going to not want to hug their mommy...so i am lapping it up right not.
this is my little artist... Az. see how proud of his sun he is...i love all of his drawings...
and Anavay...looking so darn cute! i cannot wait for her to stop being so ooooo cute. some times it makes me angry...because she tries to use it when shes in trouble...ok so thats the end of my blog today...i am so happy that i am in a better mood...cause that was just...annoying being that sad.

sorry 'bout this...

I have been feeling a bit trampled on...a bit lonely...i don't particularly know why either, which is annoying, so i am annoyed also.

I miss my sister and i really miss...a lot of things. Right now, for the last few years i have not been talking to my mom. Now there is a quite a lot with that, so i dare not try to stick it here. The short version is...i moved out with my sons into a very small apartment, i tried to keep my kids in contact with my mom under the condition that she didn't have ANY thing of bad sorts in their reach. it was agreed upon and visits ensued. On one of these visits i found pot plants growing on the ground of one of the closets, needless to say visits stopped. I told my mom that there would be no more visits over there, as she violated my trust and security, not to mention putting my kids at risk of getting a hold of that. so i said that if she wanted to visit them, then she would have to come over to my apartment, sober and without any kind of drugs or tools for drugs...needless to say (if you follow along) i found that crap in her backpack on the floor...where my kids were crawling...i told her that she needs to clean up her act or no more visits...

she threatened to call CPS (child protective services) on me. That was it, the straw that got the shake thrown away. i hadn't talked to her since, she hasn't seen my kids and that was a long time ago.

And yes that is the short story. The point of all this is that i was talking to my sister tonight and crying to myself because i missed her and my niece and my mom so darn bad. Of course i don't really tell her how badly i miss my mom, because that is a weakness and there is no way i am being weak for my kids, and myself...did you know that this person... my mom... offered me drugs when i was 10 years old...10! how can i say sure mom...how about you offer my kids that... i don't think so.

All these parents out there who do drugs...serious bad drugs....how do they call themselves parents. Isn't it our job to make sure our kids are safe...or as safe as we can manage? Isn't it... then why are these parents raising their kids in meth houses, and offering drugs.? Like my niece... if she lived with me or was over often and i knew she was going to have to eat...i surely wouldn't go buy drugs when there is no food in the house.

ANYWAY...what i was trying to say is i have been through the ringer with my mom. and i get off the phone with my sister...fragile. And my grama calls. it is always a battle with her but i try not to let things get angry... but tonight i was just too darn sad. She started in on how i need to make up with my mom and i am wrong and this is exactly how her daughter treated her....blank blank blank...needless to say, crying and arguing on the phone is not conveying a strong nor mature person.

it just really astonished me on how she knows her daughter and knows what she went through with her...and then knows what happened between us, my whole life, and still say i am wrong. Now being completely honest, i know that the silent treatment isn't going to make her change her ways, its not even going to get her to see things through my eyes, but what it does, is to make things easier on me. I don't have to look at her and cry because she looks close to death over overdosing, i don't have to give her money for food and KNOW it is being used for drugs. I don't have to explain to my kids why grama skipped out on them. There is a whole bunch of things that i don't have to do, a ton of heartbreak i don't have to go through...

my grama doesn't understand how badly i wish that she could be half the person she was off of drugs. she doesn't know how badly it hurts my physical being, not being able to hug my mom for YEARS. but the fact of the matter is, its better this way. It is and it will be. So i got into an argument with her... it makes me really sad because she is the only other person in my family that i talk to, besides my sister...now i only have my sister. I feel so...angry. Why does she choose to turn a blind eye to this after all this time. Why does she just call to push my mom on me. Why do people try to upset you. Just why. I don't know...And to top it, i didn't even get the chance to tell her my boys should be starting preschool soon...bummer.

WOWWY WOWWY WOWWY!

I have been just running and running and running and getting stuff into order and now almost everything is...my kids are now enrolled in preschool. I am just so terrified and ecstatic and happy and stressed... i have been barely tatting and responding to anything tatting....but OH no...found a knitting project... so on to knitting for a bit..maybe i will put some tatting on them...

TV, so far all my shows that i normally like are all not that great.... the show that i wasn't expecting to be intriguing is just that. who woulda known?

wowwy i am so tired of cooking....so tired...and then the dishes....i hate dishes so bad...ok...well ending on a positive note here....i am alive and i am so thankful for myself as well as my family..i think i need to look at what i am thankful for, more often... a lot of people should...it makes me happy thinking of all the ways i am happy, instead of all the ways i am miserable.